hiatus..

The hiatus was so long that I figured the blog would have been deleted by now. Or perhaps it would have fallen out of cyberspace into a black hole somewhere. 21 months I've been off of here.

And so much has happened. The guy I was dating back then is no longer in my life. It took me a very long time to get over it. Out of the clear blue sky at the beginning of March last year, he disappeared for a couple of days. I knew something was wrong, as we generally spoke at least 4 times per day. When he resurfaced it was to tell me that his ex wife had written him a long, letter saying how much she'd changed and that she wanted to get back together with him and see if they could 'make things work'. It was shocking to say the least. He, his parents, his best friend - everyone - had basically told me that she was manipulative, devious, never followed thru on anything and had no drive, passion or real smarts. He had told me he'd NEVER consider getting back together with her, and yet - he did. I was devastated. He cried. I was a mess. Until the past couple of months, I still missed him. And in some ways, I guess I still do, though now it only happens once every blue moon rather than all of the time.

Since we broke up, I 've dated some. Dated a lot. "Seen" a few guys for a few months at a time. But nothing has worked out long term. We shall see. In some ways, it's a lot of fun playing the field. In other ways it is lonely. But for the most part I'm having a good time and doing things I want to do. For example I'm going out of town over the 4th to see my best friend. That is going to be a blast. More to come.