And at times, feeling like, "Why me?" Just what exactly, did I do, to deserve this amazing man and have him love me for exactly who I am? And when, is it all going to come crashing down around my ears?
Things are so incredible and I am not naive enough to think that much of the glow, excitement and fun is that initial "honeymoon" stage of nearly every new relationship. The great thing is, we both realize it and have talked about it. We have made a commitment to always share and talk and to never be complacent about things - our relationship included. He is so open, loving, attentive and caring - it is hard to believe he's the real thing. But I think we've spent enough time together for me to be able to tell if it were an act. Its not. He really is the real thing. We have yet to disagree about anything. That will be telling - our first disagreement and how we handle it.
It is now Tuesday and he is in Chicago on business. We are biking Thursday evening so that is when I will next see him. This coming weekend, we both have our kids so I don't know if I will see him at all, other than Sunday morning for another bike ride. But next weekend is his birthday and I am really excited about that. Friday night is the family dinner and I think it will be at his mom's house. Saturday morning is his nephew's christening and I will be attending that with him. Saturday night is a complete and total surprise for him. We are going to leave his house around 4:30 and head to PDK - a local, small, private plane airport. We will have an appetizer and champagne on the deck of a Greek restaurant that overlooks the runway. At exactly 6:00, a bi-wing, open cockpit plane will pull up to the deck and we will walk down the stairs and get on board for a sunset ride over downtown and Stone Mountain. The flight should last about 40 minutes. Hopefully it will be surprising, totally romantic and we will have wonderful weather. After the flight, I haven't yet decided what to do. His favorite restaurant is Rathburns and I am going to look and see if it would be feasible for us to dine there after the flight. Then we will retire to his house and I've told him that the rest of the weekend is completely up to him. I will do whatever he wants, cook whatever, hike, bike - it is HIS weekend!
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Friday, September 26, 2008
absent...
I've been absent from blogging for most of this month. Its been kind of crazy with the kids both being injured from sports, school back in full swing and having a great time with TNG. We have done 2 half century bike rides this month and they have been really fun.
In other developments, we are really moving our relationship to the next level. I've met his parents, one of his brothers, three of his four kids, his best friend and his best friend's wife, who just so happens to be his ex wife's sister. Kind of odd that it worked out that way, but it is what it is. The bf and the ex's sister are really nice. I am deliriously happy in this relationship - he is amazing in so many ways.
Unfortunately I don't have time to blog everything right now as I have to get some work done, have a manicure and pedicure and get myself over to TNG's house - for the weekend! Can't wait.
In other developments, we are really moving our relationship to the next level. I've met his parents, one of his brothers, three of his four kids, his best friend and his best friend's wife, who just so happens to be his ex wife's sister. Kind of odd that it worked out that way, but it is what it is. The bf and the ex's sister are really nice. I am deliriously happy in this relationship - he is amazing in so many ways.
Unfortunately I don't have time to blog everything right now as I have to get some work done, have a manicure and pedicure and get myself over to TNG's house - for the weekend! Can't wait.
Monday, September 8, 2008
accomplishments
That could describe this weekend.
Friday night was very quiet and relaxing. I watched Knocked Up, had a glass of wine and went to bed early. Saturday morning found me in the gym working out with one of my really good girlfriends. Saturday afternoon (and evening) I painted my bedroom. Yes, my entire 25'x15' room. It is huge and I did the entire thing. I've wanted to paint it for years and I finally did it, and am very pleased with the results.
Sunday morning TNG and I did 25 miles on our bikes and then relaxed at Starbucks. I stopped and brought brunch home for the kiddos and settled in to watch football for the remainder of the day and night. It is so great that football season has started! Gotta love that! My team won, and did so nicely.
Now its Monday and I am back to work. This week cannot go by quickly enough...as this coming weekend TNG are going to be together for the entire weekend! I can hardly wait. No meeting somewhere in between us, no deadlines to get home, no nothing that we don't want to or have to do. It is going to be all about us - being together and doing whatever we feel like doing. Sleeping in, working out, cooking, just hanging around. I can't wait! It sounds completely decadant and indulgent and we are both looking forward to it completely.
Bring on Friday!
Friday night was very quiet and relaxing. I watched Knocked Up, had a glass of wine and went to bed early. Saturday morning found me in the gym working out with one of my really good girlfriends. Saturday afternoon (and evening) I painted my bedroom. Yes, my entire 25'x15' room. It is huge and I did the entire thing. I've wanted to paint it for years and I finally did it, and am very pleased with the results.
Sunday morning TNG and I did 25 miles on our bikes and then relaxed at Starbucks. I stopped and brought brunch home for the kiddos and settled in to watch football for the remainder of the day and night. It is so great that football season has started! Gotta love that! My team won, and did so nicely.
Now its Monday and I am back to work. This week cannot go by quickly enough...as this coming weekend TNG are going to be together for the entire weekend! I can hardly wait. No meeting somewhere in between us, no deadlines to get home, no nothing that we don't want to or have to do. It is going to be all about us - being together and doing whatever we feel like doing. Sleeping in, working out, cooking, just hanging around. I can't wait! It sounds completely decadant and indulgent and we are both looking forward to it completely.
Bring on Friday!
Friday, September 5, 2008
tgif....
Well, TGIF and not-so-much.
TNG and I are going strong, really strong. It is simply amazing to me that he can and does articulate his thoughts and feelings so freely. He is open, honest, warm, wonderful, caring, considerate, and so many other adjectives that convey love and affection that should I continue (as I could) I would sound like a lovesick teenager. Which is how I feel sometimes anyway! We have so much fun together, yet we can talk seriously. We have such an amazing, strong physical attraction for each other, yet we can simply hold hands and be happy. We are both so excited for next weekend, as we are going to spend the entire weekend together. It will be lots of fun!
He likes my kids a lot. And I think they like him too. They haven't said a lot about him, but last weekend we took them out to dinner and we all had fun. In spite of the fact that the first two restaurants we tried were both closed! The kids laughed with him about movies they all like (and that I don't) and in general it was a really good time. Whew!
After the 47 mile bike ride from hell last Monday (hills not to be believed) I met his sister in law, brother in law and their daughter. They were all really, really nice - especially his bro-in-law who also happens to be his best friend. We had fun talking and relaxing and I think they were disappointed that I wasn't staying for dinner.
However, when we arrived back at TNG's house, his ex was there. She was blocking my car in the driveway so he had to get her to move it. When he called her and asked her to do so, she came out and hovered about so as to get a look at me (or so I felt...and he later verified). It felt very uncomfortable and a bit strange - almost as if I were under a microscope. However, she was nice and didn't bite me, so I guess it was ok in the end. Later that night, he confirmed that she wanted to see me, and she was surprised that I was "professional" looking - as in not a sleazy girl. Now, why...as wholesome and clean cut as TNG is - would she think he was going to be dating a floozy, I don't know. Very odd thinking. At any rate, she is now worried that he is going to move near me. How strange is that? We both have kids in HS, and we are both solid believers in getting the kids out of HS before any sort of move, or change in relationship status would/could take place. After all, the HS years go by so quickly....and what kind of parent would pull their kid out of his/her HS so that their own love life would be more convenient?
Talk about selfish - and self centered. We can still have a relationship, we can still be together, heck, now that my kids dad will be back in town soon...we will have every other weekend together - most married people don't get that kind of one on one time. And our relationship is still so new...its not a hardship to drive a distance, or meet somewhere in the middle. One day, all too soon, our kids won't be at home any more and then we can be together all the time, if that is what we want. And all signs are pointing to that happening.
I remain in awe. And full of gratitude.
TNG and I are going strong, really strong. It is simply amazing to me that he can and does articulate his thoughts and feelings so freely. He is open, honest, warm, wonderful, caring, considerate, and so many other adjectives that convey love and affection that should I continue (as I could) I would sound like a lovesick teenager. Which is how I feel sometimes anyway! We have so much fun together, yet we can talk seriously. We have such an amazing, strong physical attraction for each other, yet we can simply hold hands and be happy. We are both so excited for next weekend, as we are going to spend the entire weekend together. It will be lots of fun!
He likes my kids a lot. And I think they like him too. They haven't said a lot about him, but last weekend we took them out to dinner and we all had fun. In spite of the fact that the first two restaurants we tried were both closed! The kids laughed with him about movies they all like (and that I don't) and in general it was a really good time. Whew!
After the 47 mile bike ride from hell last Monday (hills not to be believed) I met his sister in law, brother in law and their daughter. They were all really, really nice - especially his bro-in-law who also happens to be his best friend. We had fun talking and relaxing and I think they were disappointed that I wasn't staying for dinner.
However, when we arrived back at TNG's house, his ex was there. She was blocking my car in the driveway so he had to get her to move it. When he called her and asked her to do so, she came out and hovered about so as to get a look at me (or so I felt...and he later verified). It felt very uncomfortable and a bit strange - almost as if I were under a microscope. However, she was nice and didn't bite me, so I guess it was ok in the end. Later that night, he confirmed that she wanted to see me, and she was surprised that I was "professional" looking - as in not a sleazy girl. Now, why...as wholesome and clean cut as TNG is - would she think he was going to be dating a floozy, I don't know. Very odd thinking. At any rate, she is now worried that he is going to move near me. How strange is that? We both have kids in HS, and we are both solid believers in getting the kids out of HS before any sort of move, or change in relationship status would/could take place. After all, the HS years go by so quickly....and what kind of parent would pull their kid out of his/her HS so that their own love life would be more convenient?
Talk about selfish - and self centered. We can still have a relationship, we can still be together, heck, now that my kids dad will be back in town soon...we will have every other weekend together - most married people don't get that kind of one on one time. And our relationship is still so new...its not a hardship to drive a distance, or meet somewhere in the middle. One day, all too soon, our kids won't be at home any more and then we can be together all the time, if that is what we want. And all signs are pointing to that happening.
I remain in awe. And full of gratitude.
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