TNG is just awesome. We continue to see each other and have a great time together each and every time. Friday night I went to my favorite Italian market and picked out some yummy treats for a picnic. We took the dog down by the river, sat on a blanket overlooking the river and ate our dinner while the dog ran around and tired herself out. We shared a bottle of wine and had a marvelous time.
We then went back to my house and were on the sofa watching tv when my eldest and her boyfriend came home from dinner and a movie. The guys stayed relatively late and the girls then went to sleep. Kind of odd, my boyfriend and my daughter's boyfriend in the house at the same time...
TNG is now out of town for more than a week. He was so sweet, he busted his butt to come over the night before he left. We have talked and texted but the three hour time difference makes it late night conversation time for me. He is working today and tomorrow, golfing at Torrey Pines on Friday (no, I am not feeling sorry for him) and then hanging out with his brother in law until next Wednesday. He told me that he'd planned this trip before we met...or he wouldn't have planned on being gone so long. I wish he weren't going to be gone so long, but the weekend he returns I have no kids, so hopefully we can have a nice time when he gets back here.
In the meantime a weekend looms with no plans. How nice! I think I may paint my bedroom. Its too damn hot outside to do anything else. Well, I will ride bikes on Sunday morning and will definitely make to to the nice gym at least once. I may see a movie Friday night, or a few friends and I were talking about scrapbooking Friday night. We shall just have to see how things develop.
Soccer Dad ended his "relationship" with Crazy Woman When Not on Her Meds. Geez, she has some sort of large issues. He is better off without her. She questioned his every move when he wasn't with him and that didn't go over too well. In essence, she thought he was lying to her about his whereabouts. Now mind you, they haven't even know each other 2 weeks, and they've fought at least twice. She is a scary person.
Gotta run. I would love to take a nap, but that won't happen any time soon.
Kids will be home later - yea!!
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Wow...
Without sharing too much private detail, Friday was amazing. We had a great time and the best thing about all of it is our communication. We can and do, share anything and everything. I feel safe in his arms and in his heart. He is so open and honest about the way he feels, and after being with someone who couldn't do that at all, he is like a cool, refreshing breeze in the middle of a hot, dry desert.
So...last night we were on the phone together and my youngest child (14) came into my bedroom to borrow my laptop. TNG didn't realize my son was in my room, and as my son was leaving, I said, "I love you." TNG thought I was saying it to him. He responded in kind, saying "I love you, too". Of course, I had to blurt it out that I was talking to my son, which sent TNG into quite the uncomfortable back pedal. I hushed him and told him that I had nearly said 'I love you' to him last night (we went out to dinner) and don't worry, cuz I really am feeling like I love him. Once we got past that uncomfortableness, we continued on with our amazing connection on the phone. At the end of the conversation, he said "I love you" and I responded. WOW. It was only 3 weeks and 2 days ago that we first laid eyes on each other. We had emailed and spoken on the phone prior to our first meeting, but wow. And the strangest thing is, though its been such a short time that we've been together - we both feel like we've known each other forever and yet, not. We are definitely still getting to know each other, but the more we discover, the more we find we enjoy and cherish.
He is truly a gift in my world. Two months ago, I would have said you were smoking crack if you told me that my life could be this happy, this different, this amazing - after Steeler Fan dumped me.
We spoke last week, Steeler Fan and I. In an interesting twist, when he ended our relationship, it was so that he could get the things on his "list" done. He felt he had to make wholesale changes in his life: he wanted to lose weight and concentrate on getting back into shape, he wanted to work harder and smarter and advance his business, he wanted to spend some quality time with his children and get a laundry list of things done around his house. And he couldn't do them with me around. He couldn't do them with the 'responsibility' of a girlfriend, much less with the assistance of a girlfriend. So I felt I was dumped for a list.
At the time, he said that one day I would thank him for this, and my response was that I would never thank him for the way he did it. Flash forward two months: our conversation last week revealed nothing new about him, to me. He is still not taking proper care of himself, he hasn't lost the weight he wanted to lose, his list of 'house things to get done' is coming along, the girls are "fine" and in a very character revealing development, he is actually going to to to court with his ex wife over $200. Yes, a measly $200. It is sad that he would waste his time, effort, energy and money on something this trivial. There is a hardness and vindictiveness in his heart that I simply don't understand. Let it go. Just let it go and live.
The conclusion I drew from our conversation: though he was the one who wanted to make these changes, he has not changed one bit. And I, who was devastated by this breakup, have a new life. My house is getting back into shape, I am within a pound of my ideal weight and am in the best shape I've been in since my first triathlon in '05, I just bought my dream car, I (accidently) colored my hair (and had to go to my salon and fork over $120 to get it fixed!), I have a new attitude and a new lease on life. He hasn't changed. I have made profound changes.
I dated quite a few different people and learned a lot from them. I know what I want out of a relationship. I've been seeing a therapist for these past couple of months and I am now tapered from weekly visits to seeing her every 3 weeks. It feels amazing to be in a such a good spot, and he hasn't changed a bit. Ironic, isn't it? He wanted to make the changes, I didn't. He hasn't made the changes and I have.
Maybe I do need to thank him.
So...last night we were on the phone together and my youngest child (14) came into my bedroom to borrow my laptop. TNG didn't realize my son was in my room, and as my son was leaving, I said, "I love you." TNG thought I was saying it to him. He responded in kind, saying "I love you, too". Of course, I had to blurt it out that I was talking to my son, which sent TNG into quite the uncomfortable back pedal. I hushed him and told him that I had nearly said 'I love you' to him last night (we went out to dinner) and don't worry, cuz I really am feeling like I love him. Once we got past that uncomfortableness, we continued on with our amazing connection on the phone. At the end of the conversation, he said "I love you" and I responded. WOW. It was only 3 weeks and 2 days ago that we first laid eyes on each other. We had emailed and spoken on the phone prior to our first meeting, but wow. And the strangest thing is, though its been such a short time that we've been together - we both feel like we've known each other forever and yet, not. We are definitely still getting to know each other, but the more we discover, the more we find we enjoy and cherish.
He is truly a gift in my world. Two months ago, I would have said you were smoking crack if you told me that my life could be this happy, this different, this amazing - after Steeler Fan dumped me.
We spoke last week, Steeler Fan and I. In an interesting twist, when he ended our relationship, it was so that he could get the things on his "list" done. He felt he had to make wholesale changes in his life: he wanted to lose weight and concentrate on getting back into shape, he wanted to work harder and smarter and advance his business, he wanted to spend some quality time with his children and get a laundry list of things done around his house. And he couldn't do them with me around. He couldn't do them with the 'responsibility' of a girlfriend, much less with the assistance of a girlfriend. So I felt I was dumped for a list.
At the time, he said that one day I would thank him for this, and my response was that I would never thank him for the way he did it. Flash forward two months: our conversation last week revealed nothing new about him, to me. He is still not taking proper care of himself, he hasn't lost the weight he wanted to lose, his list of 'house things to get done' is coming along, the girls are "fine" and in a very character revealing development, he is actually going to to to court with his ex wife over $200. Yes, a measly $200. It is sad that he would waste his time, effort, energy and money on something this trivial. There is a hardness and vindictiveness in his heart that I simply don't understand. Let it go. Just let it go and live.
The conclusion I drew from our conversation: though he was the one who wanted to make these changes, he has not changed one bit. And I, who was devastated by this breakup, have a new life. My house is getting back into shape, I am within a pound of my ideal weight and am in the best shape I've been in since my first triathlon in '05, I just bought my dream car, I (accidently) colored my hair (and had to go to my salon and fork over $120 to get it fixed!), I have a new attitude and a new lease on life. He hasn't changed. I have made profound changes.
I dated quite a few different people and learned a lot from them. I know what I want out of a relationship. I've been seeing a therapist for these past couple of months and I am now tapered from weekly visits to seeing her every 3 weeks. It feels amazing to be in a such a good spot, and he hasn't changed a bit. Ironic, isn't it? He wanted to make the changes, I didn't. He hasn't made the changes and I have.
Maybe I do need to thank him.
Friday, July 18, 2008
tonight's the night....
And I know it's gonna be all right. Even better than all right, actually.
TNG is coming to pick me up, we are headed to his favorite taco place for margaritas and dinner. Then back here for a slumber party! I must admit I am nervous and excited and so is he. We rode bikes again Tuesday night and had a blast, as usual. Afterwards, as has become custom, we went to Starbucks. We were smooching - just a little bit - and a lady at the table next to us (outdoors, mind you) said something to the effect of, "None of that now, or Knock that off" or something along those lines. Our response was to look at the group of mostly older-than-us people - giggle and kiss a bit more, just for good measure. It is amazing how much fun it is to feel like you are head over heels for someone. It's been a long time since I've felt this way and I like it and more importantly - him - a lot.
TNG is coming to pick me up, we are headed to his favorite taco place for margaritas and dinner. Then back here for a slumber party! I must admit I am nervous and excited and so is he. We rode bikes again Tuesday night and had a blast, as usual. Afterwards, as has become custom, we went to Starbucks. We were smooching - just a little bit - and a lady at the table next to us (outdoors, mind you) said something to the effect of, "None of that now, or Knock that off" or something along those lines. Our response was to look at the group of mostly older-than-us people - giggle and kiss a bit more, just for good measure. It is amazing how much fun it is to feel like you are head over heels for someone. It's been a long time since I've felt this way and I like it and more importantly - him - a lot.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
the difference
I have discovered the difference between a good first date and a great first date:
Good: you recognize him from his picture on the fitness singles website when he walks in the door, you have interesting conversation, he is smart and seems to be driven and focused in his career - he has a really cool, interesting job, he doesn't seem to be a psycho, when you offer to share the bill he agrees, (kind of odd), at the end of dinner he says "I've had a really nice time and I'd like to see you again", he walks you to the valet line and shakes your hand goodnight, repeating the fact that he'd enjoy getting together again.
Great: he meets you at the door of the restaurant as he made sure to arrive first so that you didn't have to wait alone, the conversation flows to the point that you are oblivious to the fact that the restaurant has been closed for 45 minutes, you discover so much in common that it is almost odd - right down to the fact that you're both left handed, when you offer to share the bill he is horrified, he walks you to your car and asks if he could give you a goodnight hug and when you agree he sneaks in a quick, sweet peck on your cheek, then another sweet, quick peck on your lips. You cannot wait to see him again.
This is what I have learned in the past couple of weeks. There is also an in-between. I am working on articulating that one.
Good: you recognize him from his picture on the fitness singles website when he walks in the door, you have interesting conversation, he is smart and seems to be driven and focused in his career - he has a really cool, interesting job, he doesn't seem to be a psycho, when you offer to share the bill he agrees, (kind of odd), at the end of dinner he says "I've had a really nice time and I'd like to see you again", he walks you to the valet line and shakes your hand goodnight, repeating the fact that he'd enjoy getting together again.
Great: he meets you at the door of the restaurant as he made sure to arrive first so that you didn't have to wait alone, the conversation flows to the point that you are oblivious to the fact that the restaurant has been closed for 45 minutes, you discover so much in common that it is almost odd - right down to the fact that you're both left handed, when you offer to share the bill he is horrified, he walks you to your car and asks if he could give you a goodnight hug and when you agree he sneaks in a quick, sweet peck on your cheek, then another sweet, quick peck on your lips. You cannot wait to see him again.
This is what I have learned in the past couple of weeks. There is also an in-between. I am working on articulating that one.
Monday, July 14, 2008
the ex boyfriend, not husband
I got a text message from him...asking for a check. See, we bought a timeshare together about six months after we began dating exclusively. That's another lesson to remember - don't make a big financial decision while on a glorious vacation, with someone you've been dating for 7 months. Your judgement is clouded with lust, sun, sand and saltwater. At least mine was.
So, the only communication from him has been about money. Whatever.
TNG and I rode bikes yesterday. It was really fun (again) but it rained - very hard. So hard in fact, that we stopped under a bridge for shelter from the torrential downpour, which at that time was coupled with lightning. I got a really nice backrub. TNG is so sweet... however, I was disappointed to see that he wore a jersey with sleeves. We are riding again tomorrow night, so hopefully the sleeveless jersey will make an appearance along with his gorgeous arms.
After the ride, and my crash going around a corner on the wet, slippery pavement, we headed to ABC for lunch. Since I was soaked to the skin I ordered potato soup. It was yummy, but TNG said that he has a recipe that is better. This guy can cook, from the way it sounds. Then of course, we had to retire to his car for snuggling and smooching. And smooching. There is such chemistry between us, its hard to believe. And then, after all of the time we spent together yesterday morning and afternoon, (our 8:00 bike ride lasted until 2:00!) we were on the phone for an hour last night. *sigh* He makes it really tough to be "dating".
See, everything I read says the guy has to make the first move towards exclusivity. And while I would love to be in an exclusive relationship, I think its a bit early. And, I have a date tonight. With someone else. The sad thing is, I am not excited about it at all. The only person able to keep my interest in the slightest (other than TNG) is the guy who I met months ago while I was still in the relationship with Steeler Fan. This guy is adorable, charming, tall, dark and definitely handsome. I am not sure, but he might be a bit on the flaky side. Can't quite figure that one out yet. At any rate, he is the one I went out with last week on Wednesday night. We had a great time and Thursday he flew up to MI to spend 10 days at his sister's lake house. So he won't be back until the end of this coming weekend. By then, I will have seen TNG at least 2 more times, had a date with New Mexico Guy (tonight) and I am supposed to meet one other person on Saturday for a drink. I am hoping to cancel that one...because I know that this Friday, TNG is...drum roll...staying over. We want to spend as much time together as possible on Saturday and it would be great if Friday night leads to Saturday night too. But, I doubt it will. We shall see.
I am rambling all over the place here, so I am just going to sign off for now.
So, the only communication from him has been about money. Whatever.
TNG and I rode bikes yesterday. It was really fun (again) but it rained - very hard. So hard in fact, that we stopped under a bridge for shelter from the torrential downpour, which at that time was coupled with lightning. I got a really nice backrub. TNG is so sweet... however, I was disappointed to see that he wore a jersey with sleeves. We are riding again tomorrow night, so hopefully the sleeveless jersey will make an appearance along with his gorgeous arms.
After the ride, and my crash going around a corner on the wet, slippery pavement, we headed to ABC for lunch. Since I was soaked to the skin I ordered potato soup. It was yummy, but TNG said that he has a recipe that is better. This guy can cook, from the way it sounds. Then of course, we had to retire to his car for snuggling and smooching. And smooching. There is such chemistry between us, its hard to believe. And then, after all of the time we spent together yesterday morning and afternoon, (our 8:00 bike ride lasted until 2:00!) we were on the phone for an hour last night. *sigh* He makes it really tough to be "dating".
See, everything I read says the guy has to make the first move towards exclusivity. And while I would love to be in an exclusive relationship, I think its a bit early. And, I have a date tonight. With someone else. The sad thing is, I am not excited about it at all. The only person able to keep my interest in the slightest (other than TNG) is the guy who I met months ago while I was still in the relationship with Steeler Fan. This guy is adorable, charming, tall, dark and definitely handsome. I am not sure, but he might be a bit on the flaky side. Can't quite figure that one out yet. At any rate, he is the one I went out with last week on Wednesday night. We had a great time and Thursday he flew up to MI to spend 10 days at his sister's lake house. So he won't be back until the end of this coming weekend. By then, I will have seen TNG at least 2 more times, had a date with New Mexico Guy (tonight) and I am supposed to meet one other person on Saturday for a drink. I am hoping to cancel that one...because I know that this Friday, TNG is...drum roll...staying over. We want to spend as much time together as possible on Saturday and it would be great if Friday night leads to Saturday night too. But, I doubt it will. We shall see.
I am rambling all over the place here, so I am just going to sign off for now.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
update.....
When I last posted, TNG and I were going riding. We did, and we had fun. Even with me getting flat tire 5 miles from the end of the ride, we had a great time. Thankfully, I only had to walk the last 1/3 mile, and TNG was awesome - he took my shoes and helmet and carried them for me while we pushed our bikes together for the last little bit.
However, we nearly didn't get to ride - when I pulled into the parking spot next to him, I nearly stroked out -- he was wearing a sleeveless jersey and his arms are so amazing! His butt looked pretty darn great in his bike shorts too. Give me a cold shower! After the ride we went to Starbucks and got coffee and dessert. We took it outside, as they were getting ready to close. Fortunately it began to rain and we had to get in his car - fortunately I say, because it provided the opportunity for lots of snuggling and kissing. His kisses are so passionate, they leave me weak in the knees.
We are riding again Sunday morning and next Tuesday night. Friday is our next big date - and I think it could really be a big one.
However, we nearly didn't get to ride - when I pulled into the parking spot next to him, I nearly stroked out -- he was wearing a sleeveless jersey and his arms are so amazing! His butt looked pretty darn great in his bike shorts too. Give me a cold shower! After the ride we went to Starbucks and got coffee and dessert. We took it outside, as they were getting ready to close. Fortunately it began to rain and we had to get in his car - fortunately I say, because it provided the opportunity for lots of snuggling and kissing. His kisses are so passionate, they leave me weak in the knees.
We are riding again Sunday morning and next Tuesday night. Friday is our next big date - and I think it could really be a big one.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
biking
Tonight Tuesday Night Guy and I are biking on the Silver Comet Trail. We will meet there at 7:00 and ride about 20 miles. I love that trail and am very much looking forward to the ride and of course, to seeing him again.
Unfortunately, last night I had one of those god awful 'episodes' with these damn fibroids. It was so bad that I called and spoke with the doctor on call - to see what else could be done. She told me to double up on the lortab, so I did. Finally, that (and a couple of beers) knocked me out. Soccer Dad had a date last night and was in pretty much constant touch with me all evening. He rated it a 5 or 6. I feel bad that he was so nervous - but heck, he hasn't dated in 20-something years. All this dating stuff is new to him too. He was so cute - asking me all kinds of questions about what to wear, should he kiss her goodnight, etc. My oh-so-astute daughter told me that she thinks he wants to date me. She is funny that way - so much more in tune with what is going on than I ever was at her age. He and I have had that discussion - in no way is he ready to be in an exclusive relationship - he needs to be out there, dating and figuring out what exactly he wants in his 'new world'. And quite honestly - I need to do the same thing.
Its odd that I haven't heard from Harley Guy. I am kind of disappointed that I haven't heard from him since he went fishing. He's got to be back in town by now, I mean, he has a job...but oh well. This whole dating thing is kind of weird...I was really enthusiastic at first, but its a lot of WORK. I didn't expect it to be work. And now that I've met TNG and seen him twice, am going riding with him tonight...I've kind of lost my enthusiasm to work to meet anyone else. There just isn't enough time to do everything!
I've been invited by another guy out to dinner on Monday night (my next night without kids). I haven't said yes, yet. But feel like I should - if for no other reason than to just keep my options open. The only thing that makes me nervous about TNG is that his divorce is not final. I know he hasn't dated a lot, and I don't want to be his rebound girl. So, I guess I need to say yes to meeting this other guy for dinner. His name: New Mexico Guy - he moved here from NM for his dream job (and it's a really cool job, actually). He is the Asst. General Manager of one of the largest sports/entertainment arenas in the city. It would be interesting to just hear about his job. I am going to say yes.
More to come....
Unfortunately, last night I had one of those god awful 'episodes' with these damn fibroids. It was so bad that I called and spoke with the doctor on call - to see what else could be done. She told me to double up on the lortab, so I did. Finally, that (and a couple of beers) knocked me out. Soccer Dad had a date last night and was in pretty much constant touch with me all evening. He rated it a 5 or 6. I feel bad that he was so nervous - but heck, he hasn't dated in 20-something years. All this dating stuff is new to him too. He was so cute - asking me all kinds of questions about what to wear, should he kiss her goodnight, etc. My oh-so-astute daughter told me that she thinks he wants to date me. She is funny that way - so much more in tune with what is going on than I ever was at her age. He and I have had that discussion - in no way is he ready to be in an exclusive relationship - he needs to be out there, dating and figuring out what exactly he wants in his 'new world'. And quite honestly - I need to do the same thing.
Its odd that I haven't heard from Harley Guy. I am kind of disappointed that I haven't heard from him since he went fishing. He's got to be back in town by now, I mean, he has a job...but oh well. This whole dating thing is kind of weird...I was really enthusiastic at first, but its a lot of WORK. I didn't expect it to be work. And now that I've met TNG and seen him twice, am going riding with him tonight...I've kind of lost my enthusiasm to work to meet anyone else. There just isn't enough time to do everything!
I've been invited by another guy out to dinner on Monday night (my next night without kids). I haven't said yes, yet. But feel like I should - if for no other reason than to just keep my options open. The only thing that makes me nervous about TNG is that his divorce is not final. I know he hasn't dated a lot, and I don't want to be his rebound girl. So, I guess I need to say yes to meeting this other guy for dinner. His name: New Mexico Guy - he moved here from NM for his dream job (and it's a really cool job, actually). He is the Asst. General Manager of one of the largest sports/entertainment arenas in the city. It would be interesting to just hear about his job. I am going to say yes.
More to come....
Sunday, July 6, 2008
fireworks and then some....
Second date with Tuesday Night Guy was great! We met for a sushi dinner and afterwards he suggested coffee and dessert at Starbucks. I agreed and off we went - together in his car. We snuggled together on the same side of the table, with his arm wrapped around my shoulders and shared our first kiss - in Starbucks! Kind of funny, very sweet, and a big plus - he is a really good kisser. *sigh* It's been so long since I felt the excitement and anticipation of a first kiss, and to have it be so good - don't underestimate it's power. Very nice.
We eventually made our way back to his car where we talked and kissed and talked and kissed, drove back to the restaurant, and talked and kissed and ah....sooo nice. It was really hard to part ways and he told me that it was the best second date he's ever had in his life. *how aweome* We have plans to bike ride on the Silver Comet Trail one night this week (he told me that it doesn't count as a date). It should be fun. He also asked if I would like to have a third date - OF COURSE my answer was a resounding, "Yes!" Then he did a very thoughtful, very sweet thing - he told me that for our third date, I needed to do something. That something: come up with what I want to do. Whatever it is - he will make it happen. He will pick me up, and take me - wherever I want to go and do whatever I want to do. Wow - I feel the pressure to plan something really cool!
TNG has got amazing arms, sensous lips, totally muscular legs and a really tight butt. Geez, it was tough to keep under control - we were standing in a parking lot groping each other and making out like two horomone crazed teens! On one hand we laughed at ourselves and on the other it was frustrating as the desire was definitely there - but the setting wasn't right to do anything about it. That is a good thing too - as I wouldn't want to sleep with him on our second date. Well, I wanted to, but didn't want to. What an odd juxtaposition. We definitely are not playing games with each other, and I really love that. We've both made it very clear that we are totally into each other, we really like being together and that we can't wait to see each other again. How refreshing.
I am excited to ride on the Silver Comet this week with him, and even more excited to see him for our third date!
What a nice end to our nation's birthday weekend.
:-)
We eventually made our way back to his car where we talked and kissed and talked and kissed, drove back to the restaurant, and talked and kissed and ah....sooo nice. It was really hard to part ways and he told me that it was the best second date he's ever had in his life. *how aweome* We have plans to bike ride on the Silver Comet Trail one night this week (he told me that it doesn't count as a date). It should be fun. He also asked if I would like to have a third date - OF COURSE my answer was a resounding, "Yes!" Then he did a very thoughtful, very sweet thing - he told me that for our third date, I needed to do something. That something: come up with what I want to do. Whatever it is - he will make it happen. He will pick me up, and take me - wherever I want to go and do whatever I want to do. Wow - I feel the pressure to plan something really cool!
TNG has got amazing arms, sensous lips, totally muscular legs and a really tight butt. Geez, it was tough to keep under control - we were standing in a parking lot groping each other and making out like two horomone crazed teens! On one hand we laughed at ourselves and on the other it was frustrating as the desire was definitely there - but the setting wasn't right to do anything about it. That is a good thing too - as I wouldn't want to sleep with him on our second date. Well, I wanted to, but didn't want to. What an odd juxtaposition. We definitely are not playing games with each other, and I really love that. We've both made it very clear that we are totally into each other, we really like being together and that we can't wait to see each other again. How refreshing.
I am excited to ride on the Silver Comet this week with him, and even more excited to see him for our third date!
What a nice end to our nation's birthday weekend.
:-)
Saturday, July 5, 2008
fireworks
They were set off yesterday in celebration of our wonderful nation's birthday. And I think they will be set off again this evening in celebration of my 2nd date with Tuesday Night Guy. *smile* We are meeting for sushi and I think we are both pretty excited about it. He called a little while ago to confirm our plans and to give me directions. The biggest downside of dating this guy is that we live quite a ways apart. But...that can be dealt with if everything goes as well as it did on our first date on Tuesday.
I am hoping for a first kiss tonight - it is so strange - I haven't anticipated a first kiss in AGES. It feels really good! Just hope I'm not disappointed - and I don't mean by the kiss, I mean by not getting one! He is really cute and even more important, really funny. And he's funny in a nice way - not too self deprecating, not making fun of me, just funny. For example: he has kind of blondish brown hair and green eyes. He's about 5'11" and has, perhaps, the best arms I've ever had the pleasure of dining with! In his profile he states: "I am active, and enjoy biking, hiking, golf, etc. and I 've been told I look nothing like George Clooney." I don't know why, but that made me LOL! At any rate, I am excited about this date and will report in later.
:-)
I am hoping for a first kiss tonight - it is so strange - I haven't anticipated a first kiss in AGES. It feels really good! Just hope I'm not disappointed - and I don't mean by the kiss, I mean by not getting one! He is really cute and even more important, really funny. And he's funny in a nice way - not too self deprecating, not making fun of me, just funny. For example: he has kind of blondish brown hair and green eyes. He's about 5'11" and has, perhaps, the best arms I've ever had the pleasure of dining with! In his profile he states: "I am active, and enjoy biking, hiking, golf, etc. and I 've been told I look nothing like George Clooney." I don't know why, but that made me LOL! At any rate, I am excited about this date and will report in later.
:-)
Thursday, July 3, 2008
what a week!
What a difference a week makes! Last week on Wednesday I was still recovering, beginning to strongly feel like "I am back!" And indeed, the more time passes by, the better I feel. Its nice.
The trip to see BFF was great. There is nothing like time on the beach with your best girlfriend to eradicate the bad memories of your last trip to the beach with your now former boyfriend. For a while I thought I'd never stop hurting. Now, its exciting to live again! I mean really live. I am enjoying each day without worrying that I am going to say something that will make him mad, or set him off on a tirade. This coming weekend is a holiday and quite frankly, a month ago I would have dreaded it without Steeler Fan in my life. Now, I have a list of activities, projects and things to do that is so long - I can't begin to accomplish everything on it! It's great. I know I'll knock some of the stuff off of it, enjoy some spontaneous fun activities and get a lot of exercise, too.
In the meantime, Tuesday I met a guy for dinner. We met on-line, exchanged quite a few emails and then spoke on the phone, which is when we set the date. Tuesday night was really fun. Without even realizing it, we were amongst the last customers in the restaurant! We talked and laughed for more than three hours straight. He is funny, kind, considerate, athletic and a lot of fun! It seems like he plays no games, either. That is refreshing. Before we left the restaurant, he told me that he'd had a great time and he'd like to get together again. I agreed. He walked me to my car, asked if he could give me a hug, and did so - while sneaking in a peck on my cheek. *sweet* Then he kissed me very briefly on the lips. There is something to anticipation - I can't wait to see him again.
I figured with this silly ass "guys shouldn't call before 3 days after the date" rule - that I wouldn't hear from him right away. Well - he emailed me Wednesday night, said again he'd had a great time and wanted to get together. Then he emailed and called me today. We talked for nearly an hour and...we are having dinner Saturday night, and biking one night next week. :-)
Gotta get some sleep. Running a 10K first thing tomorrow. Wish me luck.
The trip to see BFF was great. There is nothing like time on the beach with your best girlfriend to eradicate the bad memories of your last trip to the beach with your now former boyfriend. For a while I thought I'd never stop hurting. Now, its exciting to live again! I mean really live. I am enjoying each day without worrying that I am going to say something that will make him mad, or set him off on a tirade. This coming weekend is a holiday and quite frankly, a month ago I would have dreaded it without Steeler Fan in my life. Now, I have a list of activities, projects and things to do that is so long - I can't begin to accomplish everything on it! It's great. I know I'll knock some of the stuff off of it, enjoy some spontaneous fun activities and get a lot of exercise, too.
In the meantime, Tuesday I met a guy for dinner. We met on-line, exchanged quite a few emails and then spoke on the phone, which is when we set the date. Tuesday night was really fun. Without even realizing it, we were amongst the last customers in the restaurant! We talked and laughed for more than three hours straight. He is funny, kind, considerate, athletic and a lot of fun! It seems like he plays no games, either. That is refreshing. Before we left the restaurant, he told me that he'd had a great time and he'd like to get together again. I agreed. He walked me to my car, asked if he could give me a hug, and did so - while sneaking in a peck on my cheek. *sweet* Then he kissed me very briefly on the lips. There is something to anticipation - I can't wait to see him again.
I figured with this silly ass "guys shouldn't call before 3 days after the date" rule - that I wouldn't hear from him right away. Well - he emailed me Wednesday night, said again he'd had a great time and wanted to get together. Then he emailed and called me today. We talked for nearly an hour and...we are having dinner Saturday night, and biking one night next week. :-)
Gotta get some sleep. Running a 10K first thing tomorrow. Wish me luck.
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